Deep down depression

Mele Kalikimaka, as they say in Hawaii nei. I can't find my old boyfriend Jeff on google, anywhere, he might have sailed off to Tahiti, like he planned. We broke up when he decided to go sailing around the world. I wanted to finish college, become an activist, and save the planet. Plus i was enjoying singing in a band way too much. So we parted company, a sad thing. He was the most healthy of my boyfriends..most kind and good. The second boyfriend, George, died of a heart attack at age 43. he dumped me to have an affair with a man (he said) and wound up with another woman..I think he was pretending to be gay..so not to offend me...(it's not you dear, it's your gender)..it was no use..i found out about his heterosexual stuff..later on, after we lost touch for many years, we became reaquainted, after my recording years in europe..we were both at the dentist at the Columbia U. clinic.. He had become a shrink, and married one of his clients, a sweet girl with mild schizophrenia... Claire would see lights when stressed out. George had advised her not to tell anyone. After his death, she was left with his medical school debts and an old car. So much for marrying a doctor. The third major boyfriend, Jerry, apparently is in jail, doing time for embezzlement. Millions and millions. He had gone back to law school. Now he's disbarred. Cheeeezzz..I think his son is a scientist. I'll go to Hawaii and find out more...maybe even visit Jerry one day. I've got time. He's got 10 more years to do.
I google friends all the time..i love this ability to find friends, i only regret that the government also avails itself of the internet..and has taken to spying on threatinging groups like the Quakers..and this is what they've put the country in hock for? (forgive the dangling preposition..or whatever it's called, my english is failing me)